So under the persuasion of my friend and editor i have decided that i would start a blog.
I don't know why it has taken me this long to get into blogging. People say i could talk for my country (not literally, wouldn't want the responsibility). Maybe i could do it for the Olympics? I'm still convinced if they are having it here they should include some classic British sports. Olympic Cheese Rolling. That would be phenomenal. I won't be going to the Olympics, far too busy for me, plus if the terrorists where ever going to attack it would be then. The Olympics for me will be less about sports and more about feeling secure that the security forces know what they are doing and reassurance that the terrorists are actually still just angry young men who couldn't negotiate their way out of a cows back passage. My aunt and cousins are going to the Olympics but not to any of the events. They paid hundreds of pound to get into the village. wait till the Olympics are over and I'm sure you could go there absolutely free!
I'm just riffing, the reasons i thought i'd start this is because i was advised to as i have a lot to say. So that being said i have a quick disclaimer. I am a Yorkshire man so have a habit of speaking my mind. most of what i say is in childish ignorance so if anything i say does make you take offence then it wasn't intended. Most of what i say is in 'Grumping' not attack. So if anything i said in the previous paragraph has offended then...erm...sorry?
So what can i say about me. I am an actor and writer from Hull living in Manchester with aspirations of fulfilling my aspirations and creating something that will make a mark on the world.Like most actors in my position i swim an endless ocean waiting for the next sight of land and the only thing to keep me ticking over is writing, whether it be plays, films, books or graphic novels. The life of an actor involves a lot of time and patience combined with blind faith and unfaltering hope not to mention A LOT of hard work. It is depressing that a lot of actors who grace or stage and screens either seem to be born into it or have bought into it with their vast fortunes.
I suppose it all depends what your views on being a success are. If you believe that simply acting every day is a success then enjoy life on the fringe and there is nothing wrong with that. Acting can bring people a lifetime of happiness and contentment. I am dead against the notion that fame and wealth are the reasons for going into acting. If those are your only aspirations then your in it for the wrong reasons. An actor doesn't (or shouldn't) need these things because they don't matter. I want to be an actor so that after I'm dead people can look back on work and art that i have left behind. even though i am physically no longer in the world it will still have an affect on people and make people see beyond the veil of everyday life, it will make them thing, question or maybe even bring them happiness. If i can do that, if i have given them a message/something to think about then i know i have done my job. "Love the art in yourself, not yourself in the art".
Sat at home now having drank a teapot full of red tea. Very nice but i think i prefer my black coffee. Black coffee does spur the mind creatively so anyone out there who is a writer, painter, musician etc if you're ever in that dreaded BLOCK then stick the kettle on. I am currently writing a book so its been a slow process. After my meeting in town today with the editor who advised me to do this blog i am feeling much happier.
I also have a few short film scenes coming up which i will be filming with my good freind John Grey. He is a man of passion, like me, but not in a gay way. He has passion for his craft and for film, like me, and together we will make some truly fabulous stuff, but not in a hay way. One of these shall hopefully be with someone who has shown keen interest in the work and seems genuinely nice and interesting themselves. Turns out they know a gaggle of ladies who consider me to be the Antichrist. This is one fo the many mysteries of the world that i will undoubtedly be talking about in future blogs. The way the world and universe work and function fascinate me and i have found myself to lean towards the realms of philosophy because of this.
One thing i have realized as a deep thinker is something we all know and experience every day, the world is mad and is run by mad people. We are led to believe that the law of existence mean that everything stacks out logically but nothing could be further form the truth. in actuality the world is upside down, the order of things is deformed and our place in the grand scheme of things follows neither cause or effect. When we live in world were Justin Beiber is as popular and wealthy as he is for having little or no talent or credentials and genuine heroes and hard working people are not even looked at you know you are living in wonderland. The thing that makes it so mad is that no one seems to care, or if they do there is nothing that can be done. Can an individual alter the world? In my opinion, No. My view on the world is that it will always be insane and no matter how much you debate, talk, complain or post things on the internet it won't change it.
The way i see it is that we have at least 80 years of run time, better to use them to their fullest rather than get depressed about how it isn't what you want it to be. The world is a big place and belongs to us all so its never going to be ideal because we don't all think the same. If we did it would be a very boring place. I am an Atheist so i don't entertain the notion of spiritual rewards in an afterlife. It's not useful to go through life waiting for eternal peace when you could be having it today plus i think religion is past its sell by date, time to get with the bigger picture. Still i don't snort at those who chose to follow it, if it makes people happy then so be it, its more the fact it causes the problems it does and how it is used as a moral barrier to justify things that are simply wrong and unmoral.
Still here i am going on when i could be saying more useful stuff. I'm not sure how often I'll be updating these blogs but i promise i will keep you up to date with my thoughts and progress. I have the book i'm writing, the short film scenes, a bigger horror film and queries on life so there's plenty to come back to. I hope that if anything i may make people think a bit about their lot and the world and maybe bring a glimmer of something or even a small thought. Who knows?
Anyway i'll get off now, need to get back to work and boil the kettle. Keep watching this space peeps.
TTFN
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